It’s sometimes quite difficult to translate my personal understanding and the freedom I enjoy sexually, into user-friendly techniques. It took me a long time to even begin to grasp what some of this stuff was about. It has crept in slowly from many angles and through numerous rich and diverse experiences that I’ve risked experimenting with. It hasn’t been easy or fun all the way. I’m immensely thankful for the people who have crossed my path over the last few years who have enriched my life through what they know, through what they have passed on to me or simply through them being who they are and in that way reflecting to me what is possible.

Osho’s words arrived in my mailbox this morning and spoke quite profoundly to me of this weird paradox of understanding versus not. I hope it speaks to some of you too, and helps to ease your way:

You come to me seeking knowledge. You want set formulas so that you can cling to them. I don’t give you any. In fact, if you have any I take them away. By and by, I destroy your certainty. By and by, I make you more and more hesitant. By and by, I make you more and more insecure.
That is the only thing that has to be done. That’s the only thing a master needs to do! To leave you in total freedom. In total freedom, with all the possibilities opening, nothing fixed… you will have to be aware. Nothing else is possible.
Osho