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The Inexplicable Design – and what it leads to…

This clip explains the differences between looking inwardly in order to scratch around in the muck, versus looking to see the perfection of what’s there. Much of what we’re told about ourselves is a story. Do we need to cling to that “history” still? Or can we live from the place of what’s here right now in this moment without any reference to past (or future.)

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No more practice/No more “me”

From a teaching by Jeff Foster:

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Do spiritual practices simply fuel the sense that you are a separate person?

If you (a separate person) are doing a practice to get somewhere… is that dualistic?

Is nonduality about giving up practices?

If a teacher gives out practices, does that mean they are keeping you trapped ‘in the dream’?

Let’s take a fresh look…

Q. The idea that we are not separate sounds like a theory, a belief. How do you know we are not separate from life? It seems as though we are…

A. Well, that’s the play. Of course it seems as though we are separate. Of course it seems as though there’s a me and a you. Of course it seems as though I’m over here and you’ve over there. Of course it seems as though there’s somebody here subjectively looking out at a solid, objective world. It’s supposed to seem that way. The seeming is the appearance. The seeming is the play. The seeming is the dance – the dance of duality.

But beyond the seeming, is there actually any separation?

Right now, what is happening? For a moment, if you can, and if you are willing, put everything you believe on hold, suspend all your second-hand knowledge, forget for a moment what you’ve been told by teachers, gurus, authorities, and look with fresh eyes at life. Look with fresh eyes at your own experience. Begin again, like a child seeing the world for the first time…

Right now, are sounds appearing? Listen: sounds simply happen. Without any effort, without you having to do anything, sounds simply appear. The sound of breathing. The sound of cars beeping their horns outside. The television blaring. A bird singing.

And then a secondary movement seems to happen: thought comes in and says “I am hearing”. “I am a separate person, hearing these sounds. There’s me, and there’s the sounds. I am the subject, and the sound is the object. There is a perceiver and the perceived.”

But does this separation ever really happen? In direct, unfiltered experience, is there any evidence that there is somebody there hearing sounds? Is there actually a person there who does the hearing, or is hearing simply happening, effortlessly? Is there somebody there doing sounds, or do sounds simply appear? Yes, thought says “I hear the sounds”, but this begs the question, what is this ‘I’ who hears the sounds? Who hears the sounds?

Same goes with seeing, thinking, feeling. Who sees? Who thinks? Who feels? Can you find anybody there doing seeing, doing thinking, doing feeling? Or are seeing, thinking and feeling simply happening, effortlessly?

Without the thought “I hear”, hearing still happens, doesn’t it?

Without the thought “I see”, seeing still happens, doesn’t it?

We say “I am thinking, I am feeling, I am seeing.” But in direct experience, isn’t it more true to say that thoughts just appear? Feelings in the body just appear? Sights and sounds and smells just appear?

That they don’t appear to ‘you’ or for ‘you’, they just appear?

That life isn’t happening to ‘you’ or for ‘you’, it’s just happening?

That really life has no centre?

This is the dream: that you are a person at the centre of your life. That you are a person doing life, a person controlling life, a person in charge of life.

See that life is just living itself. This is not ‘your’ life, this is just life. As Jesus said, you have to lose your life to save it. Perhaps this is what he was pointing to.

Jeff, do you offer a practice, a method, something that I can do that will bring me closer to what you’re saying?

Well, in a way, if you ask for a practice, you’ve not been listening to what I’ve just been saying.

Look, I’m not saying practices are wrong, or bad. You’ll find yourself doing practices or not. I’m certainly not saying “don’t do a spiritual practice because all spiritual practices are dualistic” – of course, that would just be a practice in itself!

Some people meditate, some people self-enquire, some people just like walking in nature or listening to music. It’s all life, it’s all appropriate to each and every dream, and I’m not here to tell you how to live or what to do. But what these words are really pointing to is the possibility that there is nobody there separate from life who can choose to do practices or not. Ultimately, there is doing, but no doer.

You see, no practice can bring you closer to life. There is only life, and all practices, and absence of practices, appear within life, which is what you are. If you think you are closer to life, or further away from life, these are just thoughts appearing within life.

Some people do meditation because they think it will get them closer to what I’m pointing to. Some people do self-enquiry because they think it will get them closer to what I’m pointing to. Some people give up practices altogether because they think it will get them closer to what I’m pointing to. I’m not saying any of this is right or wrong, I’m just saying it’s what seekers apparently do!

The real question of course is who does the practice? Who sits down to meditate? Who self-enquires? Who asks questions and waits for answers? All practices, in the end, lead to this question.

Why do some spiritual teachers give out practices, then?

Well, perhaps that’s the ultimate point of practices – to make you believe that you are getting somewhere, until it is seen in clarity that there is nowhere to go but here. To make you think that you are getting closer to your goals, until it’s seen that your goals are imaginary. However, this could be seen whilst doing spiritual practices… but it could also be seen whilst having a cup of tea, or walking in a park, or listening to music, or shopping in a supermarket…

There’s a world of difference between sitting down to meditate in order to get somewhere, and meditating for its own sake. There’s a huge difference between singing mantras because you think it will bring you closer to awakening… and just singing mantras. There’s a huge difference between sitting on a chair watching your breathing because you think it will bring you closer to enlightenment… and just sitting on a chair. There’s nothing wrong with meditation, or singing mantras, or sitting on a chair. But the question is, what are you looking for? When will you find it? And is there actually anything to find? Or is there only the present appearance of life? Is there only life, appearing to no-one? Is that possible?

Yes, the need for spiritual practices may simply fall away when it’s seen that there’s nobody there separate from life. And then you will find yourself meditating, or not meditating, and either way, you can’t go wrong.

Perhaps the reason I don’t give out specific practices is because I don’t know what’s best for you, in your dream. I am not an authority on life – there’s no such thing. I don’t have a one-size-fits-all method or practice that will magically solve all your problems. That’s a lovely idea but unfortunately life doesn’t really work like that. In the end, life isn’t something that needs to be fixed anyway… and that’s the great discovery….

Are you saying we should just stop practices, stop trying to help ourselves, and others?

I’m not here to tell you how to live, only to point back clearly to life as it is. I’m not telling you to give up on life, I’m not telling you to stop doing what you’re doing, I’m not telling you to stop helping others, I’m not even telling you to ‘do nothing’…

Look, you will find yourself helping people or not. But you see, beyond helping and needing to be helped, there is a wordless intimacy in which nobody can help anybody – because there is simply nobody there separate from life. Beyond help and helplessness, you are already free, and that’s the possibility that is being shared here. And again, this could be seen in the midst of practice, or in the midst of watching TV and doing the washing up. Nonduality isn’t about detaching yourself from the world and from other people (and justifying that detachment with the belief that there is no world, and there are no others). Detachment is separation. No, this is about a life lived in fullness, where nothing is denied. And that fullness could include moving to help apparent others, although ultimately there are no ‘others’. It could include moving to improve your life, if you think that your life needs to be improved, even though it’s not ‘your life’ at all. To the mind it’s a total mystery, a total paradox… but to what you are, it is the clearest and most obvious thing of all…. and there is no paradox in it, at all.

If someone is hungry, you might give them food. If somebody is in physical pain, you might help ease their pain if that is possible. If somebody is upset or frightened, you might help them to take a look at what they are thinking in the moment, and to see it as just a story. When there is unconditional love, there is space for all of this. But where the action comes from, you don’t know – it all happens spontaneously, without any specific agenda.

When you see that the world does not need your help, perhaps that’s when you become the greatest help. Because ‘you’ get out of the way…

So, after all that, do I really need to give you a practice? Can’t you see that you already have the perfect practice? That you’re doing it right now? That, in fact, you are it?

But don’t spiritual practices bring you to that realisation? Didn’t you do spiritual practices when you were a seeker? Didn’t they bring you to where you are today?

Years ago, I used to be obsessed with spiritual practices! I was desperate to become an ‘enlightened person’, I was desperate to become ‘awakened’, to lose my self and merge with life. I was a depressed, miserable human being, and I saw spiritual enlightenment as the only way out. Modern psychology hadn’t worked for me – it only seemed to deal with surface issues. I didn’t want to ‘fit in’ or ‘adapt to society’ – I wanted to be free, totally, radically, free. I didn’t want a fleeting state called ‘happiness’ – I wanted truth and reality. And so I turned to the teachings of enlightenment, and I became obsessed with trying to transform. I tried everything. I meditated for hours every day, I did self-enquiry obsessively, I even became a vegan for a while because I thought it would bring me closer to life. And it was all very exciting at first, because I thought that I – a separate person – was getting somewhere. I thought that the seeker was getting closer to the sought. I thought that I was ‘nearly there’.

But eventually, the seeking failed. Why? Because no matter what I did, or didn’t do, there was still the sense that there was somebody there, separate from life, doing or not doing. No matter what I did, or gave up doing, to try and get rid of separation, separation still seemed to be there. I was in a double-bind. I saw that seeking was futile, but I couldn’t give up. I saw that practices were pointless (because they seemed to fuel the sense that I was separate) but I also saw that not doing practices, or giving up practices, was just another practice, just another tactic to bring about a desired change. The seeking ended in despair and frustration. How could a separate self get rid of a separate self? Not possible. I was lost.

And in that lost-ness, in that frustration and despair, another possibility arose. And it had nothing to do with somebody doing something to get somewhere. It went beyond doing practices or not doing practices. This possibility said that I was already free, that freedom was right here and right now, and that I had never for one moment been separate from it. That no practice can take you to freedom, because practices already arise in freedom. It all became as clear as crystal, as obvious as breathing.

In the seeing of this, practices became totally unnecessary. Having a coffee with a friend became equal to sitting down to meditate. Why? Because it was seen that the one who sits down to have a coffee with a friend is the one who sits down to meditate! The one who walks through the park looking at the beautiful flowers is the one who sings mantras or goes to therapy or spends a lifetime seeking enlightenment! The seeker is the sought. There is nothing to find – nothing was ever lost. As wise men and women throughout the ages have been trying to tell us – You Are That. Already.

Did practices lead ‘me’ to this realisation? Yes and no. It’s always yes and no, and totally beyond yes and no! The mind operates in the world of ‘yes and no’. But of course, life is always beyond mind. Life is not yes or no, life is just life. This is why this is very difficult to talk about…

Look, practices were all about me attempting to get somewhere, while this realisation that I’m sharing was a seeing-through of this me who was trying to get somewhere! Practices were all about doing something to bring about a change. This was the seeing that life is always exactly as it is, and no change, in the moment, is necessary. Practices were all about cause-and-effect, about putting in effort to get a result, and what was seen is that life is ever-free from cause-and-effect. Life as it is is not the result of effort, because ‘effort’ and ‘result’, ’cause’ and ‘effect’, indeed all thoughts about life, are simply thoughts appearing in life. The thought of a ’cause’ doesn’t actually cause anything. The thought of a ‘result’ is not the result of anything. The past does not bring you to the present. The present is all there is, and the past is just a story arising in the present. (And ultimately the ‘present’ is just another thought too…)

In the story of time, it seems as though there is cause and effect. It seems as though A leads to B. It seems as though acorns grow into oak trees. It seems as though what I did brought me to where I am now. It was this illusion that was seen through! No practice brought me here, because ‘I’ am not here! ‘I’ is just a story arising here! The shocking realisation was this: freedom had nothing to do with whatever Jeff did or didn’t do on his spiritual search. Freedom is not a result of Jeff’s search. Life is not caused by Jeff’s search. Jeff’s search appeared in life… and itself was a full expression of life. I had always been Home, but hadn’t realised it.

In other words, even the seeker is Oneness… dressed up as a seeker, looking for Oneness. The seeking is really Oneness looking for itself…

But was your seeking necessary?

I must say this: the story of Jeff’s search is the only story which could have happened, because it did happen. I simply had to go through what I went through, not because it was predestined, but because it happened, simple as that. What happened, happened. The dream you dream is the only possible dream. Your life story is the only possible story that could have arisen. And so spiritual practices were necessary (only because they happened)… until it was seen in clarity that they weren’t necessary. And when it was seen that they weren’t necessary, it was also seen that they had never been necessary, because there has only ever been life. I have always been this. Even before I did spiritual practices I was this. When I took my first breath, I was this. When I take my last, I will be this. I cannot not be this. And neither can you. You are what I am. And that renders all spiritual practices obsolete. This is not a rejection of spiritual practices, but a movement beyond them…

Spiritual practices aren’t necessary, in the larger sense of the word. It doesn’t take another 50 years of meditation, or psychotherapy, or guru worshipping, to become what you are. However, if you believe that it does, if that is your dream, then you will probably find yourself meditating, or worshipping a guru, or attending psychotherapy sessions for the next 50 years. I wish you the best of luck! You live your own dream. What you believe is necessary becomes necessary for you. It’s that simple.

And maybe what is being shared here will be seen in the midst of meditation or psychotherapy. Or maybe it will be seen in the midst of doing the dishes, or walking through the park, or reading these words. Who knows. There are no rules, and there is no authority. Or if there is any authority, it is life itself, not any particular individual within life. Although ultimately every apparent individual is simply an expression of life…

You will find yourself meditating, or not meditating, and I am not here to tell you how to live. There are enough people in the world telling you how to live! But if you really listen to what I’m saying, you may find that the need to practice or be practiced on simply falls away very naturally… and then all that’s left is life happening, with no need to do anything to get closer to life happening. It’s an intimacy beyond words, and really it’s where you already are, even if you don’t know it. Everybody is this, even if they don’t recognise it.

Ultimately you can’t even ‘return Home’… because you never left Home in the first place. You can’t ‘find’ the miracle because you’ve always been living it. You can’t ‘become’ awakened, you can’t transform into an ‘awakened person’ or reach an ‘awakened state’, because life itself is already awake, and there is nobody here separate from that ever-present awakeness. In a way, this turns all spiritual teachings upside-down and inside-out, revealing a previously-ignored simplicity right at the heart of life…

Jeff, do you really believe all of this?!

I know that not a word I say could possibly be true, because no word can touch life. Life is too alive for words. So, no, I don’t actually believe in this stuff, in the sense that I cannot form it into a ‘belief’ that I’m separate from. I don’t believe in life – because there is only life. Life as it is does not require belief, and that’s the beauty of it. It is simply this – here and now. It is breathing happening, it is the heart beating, it is sights and sounds and smells arising right now. It is sound of the washing machine whirring. It is the taste of the cup of tea I’m drinking. So simple, so obvious, so present. No need for belief, at all.

Life is the bonfire that burns up all words, even these words, leaving only presence. These words appear and are immediately burnt up. Jeff knows he is not special or different – he is simply an appearance in life. I cannot be an ‘authority on nonduality’, I cannot ‘know’ this, because these words are equal to the barking of a dog or the tweeting of a bird. It is all the one expression, and nobody can separate themselves from that expression and claim ownership. Nobody can teach life itself, nobody can give you that, because the dog barking, the bird singing, the sun shining is already life itself. Nobody can teach you it because everything is teaching it – everything is it.

To be totally free from all authority, including your own… that’s the real freedom….

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Mindful Loving

Mindfulness is a term with various interpretations and understandings. Although it’s become quite popular in recent times, I understand it to have roots in ancient Zen Buddhist practice. This little list of helpful suggestions for practicing mindfulness, works really well if you apply it specifically to how you relate intimately, to your mate:

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How to Be Mindful

1. Do one thing at a time. Single-task, don’t multi-task. When you’re pouring water, just pour water. When you’re eating, just eat. When you’re bathing, just bathe. Don’t try to knock off a few tasks while eating or bathing or driving. Zen proverb: “When walking, walk. When eating, eat.”

2. Do it slowly and deliberately. You can do one task at a time, but also rush that task. Instead, take your time, and move slowly. Make your actions deliberate, not rushed and random. It takes practice, but it helps you focus on the task.

3. Do less. If you do less, you can do those things more slowly, more completely and with more concentration. If you fill your day with tasks, you will be rushing from one thing to the next without stopping to think about what you do. But you’re busy and you can’t possibly do less, right? You can. I’ve done it, and so have many busy people. It’s a matter of figuring out what’s important, and letting go of what’s not. Read more: The Lazy Manifesto: Do Less.

4. Put space between things. Related to the “Do less” rule, but it’s a way of managing your schedule so that you always have time to complete each task. Don’t schedule things close together — instead, leave room between things on your schedule. That gives you a more relaxed schedule, and leaves space in case one task takes longer than you planned.

5. Spend at least 5 minutes each day doing nothing. Just sit in silence. Become aware of your thoughts. Focus on your breathing. Notice the world around you. Become comfortable with the silence and stillness. It’ll do you a world of good — and just takes 5 minutes!

6. Stop worrying about the future – focus on the present. Become more aware of your thinking — are you constantly worrying about the future? Learn to recognize when you’re doing this, and then practice bringing yourself back to the present. Just focus on what you’re doing, right now. Enjoy the present moment.

7. When you’re talking to someone, be present. How many of us have spent time with someone but have been thinking about what we need to do in the future? Or thinking about what we want to say next, instead of really listening to that person? Instead, focus on being present, on really listening, on really enjoying your time with that person.

8. Eat slowly and savor your food. Food can be crammed down our throats in a rush, but where’s the joy in that? Savor each bite, slowly, and really get the most out of your food. Interestingly, you’ll eat less this way, and digest your food better as well.

9. Live slowly and savor your life. Just as you would savor your food by eating it more slowly, do everything this way — slow down and savor each and every moment. As I type this, for example, I have my 3-year-old daughter, Noelle, on my lap. She’s just sitting here quietly, as the rain pours down in a hush outside. What a lovely moment. In fact, I’m going to take a few minutes off just to be with her now. Be right back. :)

10. Make cleaning and cooking become meditation. Cooking and cleaning are often seen as drudgery, but actually they are both great ways to practice mindfulness, and can be great rituals performed each day. If cooking and cleaning seem like boring chores to you, try doing them as a form of meditation. Put your entire mind into those tasks, concentrate, and do them slowly and completely. It could change your entire day (as well as leave you with a cleaner house).

11. Keep practicing. When you get frustrated, just take a deep breath. When you ask yourself, “What should I do now, Self?”, the answer is “keep practicing”.

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Post Orgasmic Illness Syndrome

A subject that I know needs greater recognition and understanding. II think it’s far more prevalent, perhaps in milder forms, than is recognized. I’m aware of it in myself and I watch the coming and going of the effects of it from time to time.

One solution is to learn to enjoy touch, pleasure and intimacy without the need to explode that out of your body in a typical way. I think if the effects of orgasm are so debilitating that you begin to wonder if you have a syndrome like this, you’d be motivated enough to for-go the momentary peaks of orgasm. This may take time and practice, but you may also discover something even more enjoyable. I suspect you will!

Contact me if you would like to know more on this, and to discover the greater pleasure.

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Falling in love with the Now – Gina Lake

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To fall in love with the Now, you have to fall in love with the adventure of not knowing, because the Now is an adventure in not knowing. You have to be willing to get lost in the moment and let life take you from one moment to the next without knowing where it’s taking you.

The truth is that we have never actually known what the next moment holds, but the ego pretends to know. Based on the past, the ego often assumes to know what will happen, or it imagines a desired future. It believes its own images are or can be real representations of reality.

This tendency to make up the future or pretend to know what’s going to happen is what egos do to feel safe. It’s an attempt at some control in a world where little is, in fact, in our control. The ego pretends that reality is different than it is, and when reality doesn’t match the ego’s wishes, imaginations, and assumptions, it’s disappointed, angry, or sad. But that doesn’t prevent the ego from continuing to pretend it knows and continuing to create an imaginary future. Minds are just programmed to do that.

The trouble with believing the egoic mind’s version of reality is that it takes us out of reality, which is actually a very pleasurable experience. Being in the Now is highly pleasurable because being fully in our senses, which is part of being in the Now, is highly pleasurable. Although the ego seeks sensual pleasure, it’s usually lost in thought while engaging in that pleasure or doing two things at once, thereby diluting the sensual experience. Ironically, the ego seeks pleasure, while limiting the experience of pleasure by keeping us in our mental realm in the midst of whatever sensual experience we’re having. When we spend enough time in the Now for the depth of sensual pleasure to finally register, we are rewarded for doing so, which encourages us to spend more time in the Now—in our experience of real life rather than our thoughts about life.

What’s so difficult about being in the Now has nothing to do with the Now, because the Now has everything we’ve been looking for. What’s difficult about being in the Now is that the mind continually pulls us out of the Now with desires, fantasies, thoughts about the past, problems, dreams, judgments, opinions, worries, doubts, fears, “what ifs,” and so on. Thoughts are extremely seductive, and we are programmed to be seduced by our thoughts. Our programming causes us to believe that our thoughts are more important and much juicier than anything going on in the present moment and that the Now is bland and boring, when quite the opposite is true. Thoughts are actually poor imitations of reality. Like cardboard pictures of a piece of cake, our thoughts entice us but don’t deliver anything real. The Now, on the other hand, once we stay in it long enough to really experience it, is juicy, alive, rich, and satisfying. In the Now, we experience contentment, happiness, and peace unlike anything the ego has to offer.

The ego is the generator of discontentment. How could it—or why would it—give us anything truly satisfying when its purpose is to produce discontentment? The discontentment it creates keeps us involved with it, as it attempts to solve the problems and satisfy the dis-ease that it has caused. The ego thinks up problems and then offers solutions, but its solutions, like its problems, are made up. They are artificial and don’t arise naturally from the Now, from the flow of life. Have you noticed how Life solves problems? Answers, solutions, arise all of a sudden out of nowhere when you need them (but not necessarily right when you want them). Who knows when that will be? That’s how the Now works. It delivers answers and solutions when the time is right; we just don’t know when that will be. That’s why I said that to fall in love with the Now, you have to fall in love with not knowing—because the experience of the Now is an experience of not knowing.

What’s so bad about not knowing? Nothing, really, if you trust life. The ego doesn’t trust life, so its solution to not knowing and the distrust engendered by that is to pretend or try to know something. When you trust that life is good, you don’t need to know. For instance, when you trust your husband (or wife) to pay the bills, do you need to know about it? No. Trust precludes knowing. Not needing to know allows you to drop out of your mind, which is the only thing that needs to know, into the moment. Once you are in the moment, life is a sensual and joyous adventure.

When you are in the Now, you experience life as the being that you are experiences life—and it’s having a wonderful time! It’s in awe of this life that it’s created and is participating in. It’s excited to see what will happen next and how life will unfold: Who will show up? What will that person say? What will I say? What will we do? What will happen after that? What an adventure this is. The way you experience life as an adventure instead of something to be afraid of is to fall in love with not knowing what’s going to happen next. That’s what we love about movies and novels, isn’t it? We love to wonder and discover what’s going to happen. What will this character do? And what will that character do? The Divine is having a ball creating and living within its creations in each of us. What an amazing life and world this is! This is the truth that the ego doesn’t want you to see because if you do see the truth about life, you’ll realize you don’t need the ego anymore, and it will cease to exist or fall into the background.

Here’s my latest blog post at http://www.radicalhappiness.com/

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“Nothing trumps truth…” – Jed McKenna

When we come to the point where we can’t think we can’t find any more happiness, we think it’s all over. And in a way it is. In a good way. This is life’s wake up call. Misery, suffering death. This is where people are forced to get real, and where understanding can occur. Nothing trumps truth.

You are at the exact centre of the universe – YOUR universe.

There is only Truth and illusion, and within illusion there is only fear and denial. Denial of fear is the motivation underlying all activities in which humans engage. This is “vanity” in the biblical sense.

We must constantly project the illusion of self because if we don’t – WE AREN’T!

I’m asking you now – “Is it possible, that everything’s going to be “all right.”

Don’t you ever get tired of being afraid; of struggling? The answer is to stop struggling – to go INTO the fear.

The cause of the unhappiness isn’t the situation – but the resistance. You’re making death and decay and disease – evil. But they’re not eveil. They just are. The clinging is the cause of the unhappiness. Release is the answer.

We might equate surrender with abdication of self-responsibility – but it’s really just the opposite. It’s where we dispense with intermediaries like priests and doctors and government, and take our own lives into our own hands!

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Body Armouring

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by Margo Anand

Healing Your Genital Armoring

Body armoring is a process whereby past traumatic experiences are stored in the body’s muscle tissues. What happens is that the body’s tissues harden, creating tension and blocking energy in the area that has been traumatized. By armoring itself, the body’s intention is to reduce its vulnerability to pain. But this process has the parallel effect of reducing our capacity for feeling pleasure.

In this regard the male and female sex organs are as prone to armoring as the rest of the body and can function at a reduced level of sensitivity. In fact, because the sexual organs have been subjected to vigorous condemnation from childhood onward, the genital area has become a major storehouse of negative imprints, greatly reducing our capacity for sexual pleasure and preventing full enjoyment of orgasmic release. Think about it for a moment. Traces of the emotional content of every unsatisfactory sexual experience have been recorded in the muscular tissues of your genitals, building up tension in the area so slowly that you did not even suspect that it was happening.

In men, circumcision, early experiences of guilt and fear associated with masturbation, clumsy prostatic examinations, and a compulsion to demonstrate “masculinity” by being forceful and thrusting in lovemaking all contribute to genital armoring. This armoring can manifest itself as a hardening of the penis, causing penile insensitivity that requires extremely strong stimulation in order to achieve arousal or, by contrast, it can result in an oversensitivity and fragility of the foreskin that translates into the attitude, “Don’t touch me!” Armoring in men also manifests itself in the form of chronic tension in the anal sphincter muscles, involuntary erections, and an attitude of sexual greed – the need for repeated genital stimulation.

In women, armoring can be caused by guilty masturbation, forceful male fingering, sexual intercourse without sufficient foreplay, making love when you don’t feel like it, failing to reach orgasm, having an abortion, or undergoing a caesarean birth or a hysterectomy. These contribute to the build-up of insensitivity in tissues around the vagina and pelvis. This tension manifests itself most commonly as a subtle tightness or stiffness in a vagina that never fully relaxes, even during intercourse. As a result, it is only narrowly receptive to the male organ.

Through working with many women, I have been able to create an “armoring map” of the vagina, showing how certain types of fears are related to specific areas of the female sex organs.

Vaginal lips: fear of opening, shame, desire to hide, a feeling of “l can’t do this!”
Clitoris: nervousness, distrust, impatience, holding tight, like clenching your fists or teeth when you don’t want to express your anger
Perineum and perineal sponge: difficulty letting go into pleasure, numbness
G spot: sexual frustration as a result of faking orgasm, performance anxiety, feeling inadequate, pushing for orgasm and not getting it
Vagina canal around cervix: anger, expecting the worst, neediness, feeling like a victim, abortions, and childbirth traumas
If you are not sure whether genital armoring applies to you, try answering these questions. Think about them slowly rather than giving a reflex response:
Women: Were you forced into sexual intercourse or sexual manipulation at an early age, before you were ready?

Have you ever made love because your partner was turned on, even though you didn’t feel like it?

Have you ever felt your partner left you “hanging in mid-air” while he was already “over the edge”?

Have you ever faked an orgasm?

Men: Have you ever made love as a performance, even though you had no enthusiasm for it?

Have you ever found yourself so busy giving pleasure to your woman that you forgot about your own pleasure?

Both: During sex have you ever found to your dismay that you couldn’t feel anything “down there”?

Have you ever made love as way of avoiding confrontation with your partner or covering up your anger?

Have you ever believed that everyone else was sexual and orgasmic, while you were lagging way behind, feeling just a trickle of a sensation?

If you answered yes to any of these questions, you probably have some body armoring in your genitals. This armoring also translates into psychological attitudes -for instance, feeling uncomfortable talking about your sexuality or your genitals, or feeling discomfort when your lover examines your genitals. Working with hundreds of people, I have found that armoring seriously inhibits sexual sensitivity and therefore blocks deeper pleasure. I have also found that it is difficult for people to be open to the ecstasy of High Sex until the whole genital and anal area has been cleaned of imprints left by negative sexual experiences. Only through direct, hands-on, loving massage around and inside the genital area can we effectively heal these past wounds and transform pain into, pleasure. To do this we need to direct our full attention and acceptance to the way our genitals feel.

When the penis is healed, it becomes flexible, warm, and vibrantly alive when erect. In addition to the stimulation provided by vigorous sexual intercourse, this increased sensitivity enables the man to receive pleasure by resting his penis in the vagina in a gentle, relaxed, non-demanding way. Prior to healing, he may not have been able to feel anything without continued stimulation.

When the vagina is healed, it becomes naturally yielding, soft, and welcoming, allowing a sense of trust and playfulness in lovemaking. The vaginal muscles are elastic and respond to the penis by massaging it naturally.

Love and acceptance are the key ingredients for healing. That is why we need to understand the meaning of loving ourselves and our bodies before we can even think of making love with another person. Only then are we fully ready and available for the joys of ecstatic lovemaking.

Karezza

Here is an article (written in 1931) which I really enjoy. I love the word Karezza that is used to describe Sacred Sexuality. The article was written in a time when contraception was illegal.

What is Karezza?

Karezza is controlled non-seminal intercourse. The word Karezza (pronounced Ka-ret-za) is from the Italian and means a caress.

The first objection that is certain to meet one who would recommend Karezza is that it is “unnatural.” Noyes confronts this objection very ably, and it is indeed absurd, when you came to think of it, to hear men who drink alcohol, smoke, use tea and coffee, take milk, though adults, eat cooked food, live in heated houses, wear clothes, write books, shave their faces, use machinery, and do a thousand and one things which the natural man, the true aborigine, knew nothing of, condemn a mere act of moderation and self-control in pleasure as “unnatural.”

In successful Karezza the sex-organs become quiet, satisfied, demagnetized, as perfectly as by the orgasm, while the rest of the body of each partner glows with a wonderful vigor and conscious joy, or else with a deep, sweet, contentment, as after a happy play; tending to irradiate the whole being with romantic love; and always with an after-feeling of health, purity and well-being. We are most happy and good-humored as after a full meal. Whereas, if there has been an orgasm, it is the common experience that there is a sense of loss, weakness, and dispelled illusion; following quickly on the first grateful feeling of relief. There has been a momentary joy, but too brief and epileptic to make much impression on consciousness, and now it is gone, leaving no memory. The lights have gone out, the music has stopped. The weakness is often so severe as to cause pallor, faintness, vertigo, dyspepsia, disgust, irritability, shame, dislike, or other pathological or unloving symptoms. This especially on the man’s part, but perhaps to some extent on the woman’s part too. Even if no more, there is lassitude, sudden indifference, a wish to sleep. A wet blanket has fallen for the time at least, on the flame of love. Romance drops and crawls like a winged bird. In Karezza, on, the contrary, the partners unfold and separate reluctantly, lingeringly, kissing, clinging, petting to the last, thrilled with and rehearsing memories, glowing with an affection and admiration which they feel can never end.

It would appear that in the orgasmal embrace the life-force is thrown off with such suddenness and volume that it is quite impossible for the partner to receive or assimilate much of it, therefore most of it is utterly wasted.

For this reason, the orgasmal-embrace is a most clumsy and disappointing thing when employed as a love-embrace. Nature meant it only for propagation and its whole modus operandi is calculated to check love, defeat love, and turn love into indifference or aversion. The more frequently it is employed, the more love dies, romance evaporates, and a mere sexuality, a matter-of-fact relation, or plain dislike, takes the place of the glamour of courtship days. On the contrary, Karezza makes marriage more delicious than courtship, more romantic than wooing, and maintains an endless, satisfying honeymoon.

There is an increase of attractiveness and magnetism of each for each, a growth of satisfaction in each other’s society, affection, and caressing becomes a sweet habit. Nothing else known makes the course of true love run so smooth as Karezza.

The orgasm is not always, but very commonly followed by a greater or less degree of exhaustion, perhaps extreme, but Karezza, unless repeated to excess, or practiced between the mis-mated, is never followed by exhaustion, but often by a delightful glow and joy in life. The usual sequel to the orgasm is demagnetization, indifference, too frequently irritability, disgust, repulsion and a craving for stimulants, but Karezza irradiates the whole being with tender, romantic, peaceful love. This, so far as I know, is universal experience, therefore merely needs to be stated to show how healthful an influence Karezza must wield. As a matter of fact, because of the tonicity, glow and vigor it bestows on the sexual parts and its wine-like inspiration of the spirit of the partners, with no reaction, it is one of the best hygienic agencies for the benefit and cure of ordinary sexual weaknesses and ailments – leucorrhea, displacements, prolapsus, bladder-troubles, simple urethritis, prostatitis, etc., known. And I say this from actual knowledge. I have known it to act like magic in painful menstruation and in prostatitis. But remember, I am always speaking of its exercise between those who are naturally fitted to respond and who really love each other, who honor their bodies and would not knowingly abuse them. As a mere sex-experiment it might be of little value or satisfaction. It appears to be perfect or poor, just about in proportion to the greater or less amount of heart-love involved. At least it imperatively demands kindness, tenderness, chivalry on the man’s part, a pleased acceptance and relaxation on the woman’s; and the more refinement, poetry of feeling and mutual romance the better – any amount can be utilized. The gross, reckless and lustful may as well let it alone – it is not for them.

As a nerve sedative its effect is remarkable. I have known it to instantly cure a violent, even agonizing nervous headache, a restful nap following upon the cessation of pain. Under a strong, gentle magnetic man, a nervous woman often falls into a baby-like sleep, in the very midst of the embrace, and this is felt to be a peculiar luxury and coveted experience. Many women call Karezza “The Peace”; others call it “Heaven.” This alone is a testimony worth volumes.

Now I do not apprehend, from all I have seen of life, that Karezza will ever come into vogue from the male side of the world. Men seem united in their dull, lethargic indifference to it. Helplessly or selfishly they say it is impossible, and let it go at that, rather than make the little effort required to perfect themselves in it. They would preferably choose, or rather oblige their women to choose, something out of the nerve-shocking, disgusting, disease-producing outfit of douches, drugs, tampons, plugs, pessaries, shields, condoms, and save them all further responsibility in the matter, although the highest authorities admit none of these resources are really safe, that is sure, contraceptives, and most of them are decidedly injurious. Only the absence of semen is safe, and that is found in Karezza and in Karezza alone. But perhaps the most clinching condemnation of these methods, to a refined person, is that pronounced by a fine woman of my acquaintance, “There is not one of these methods that does not destroy, for the woman, all the poetry of the act.” Only in Karezza is the poetry fully preserved, and not only that, but made capable of development to the most refined nuances of artistic and ingenious delight. Only to the Karezza-lover is the Art of Love possible in any sense worthy of the name. All the others begin the performance by shutting off the music and throwing away the wine.

But as the Woman Movement grows I am sure Karezza will come into its own. As women learn its transcendent importance to their happiness and health, they will demand it and refuse all men that cannot supply that demand. That will be a force that cannot be withstood.

Woman is by birth the Queen of Love and will certainly assume her inheritance and control in her own sphere and realm.

Extracted from SacredTexts

Ram Dass speaks on Attachment and Separation

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Be a Masterful Lover

picnic-loversThings have been rather quiet here for a while. I’ve been through some interesting and arresting times and haven’t felt drawn to visit my site (here) at all.

Reading this article (below) I was reminded of a richness that is often so close and yet can seem so far.

Breeeaaaathe, and enjoy ~

Be a Masterful Lover- Give Your Goddess These 3 Gifts.

A taste of Mooji

What does a man have, to offer to a woman

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Be soft like water!

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“Water is so soft that it can’t be harmed, damaged, or destroyed—it simply returns to its Source to be used over and over again. Boil it until it disappears, and its vapors enter the atmosphere, ultimately to return. Drink it, and it returns after nourishing your body. Pollute it, and it will return after enough passage of time to become purified nourishment again. This is all accomplished because of the element’s mutable softness.

When you stay soft and surpass the hard, you too will be indestructible. There’s nothing softer than water under heaven, and yet there’s nothing that can surpass it for overcoming the hard. There’s so much wisdom to be found in this analogy: Stay in your soft mode. Hang back when you’re about to show how hard you can be. Try patience rather than attempting to rigidly control. Trust your innately gentle self.” Wayne Dyer

This option, skill and way of being like water, fits beautifully with how we can relate intimately with a partner – in the bedroom as well as outside it, when the going gets rough. As we practice touching and making love softly, we embody and integrate the principle of living and being as soft and as gentle as water. What better way to show your soft open heart than through the way you touch your lover.

A respected teacher of mine often encourages his students to “open and soften” in the midst of a wave of turmoil. This is the same principle as the art of being like water. When life thrusts us into situations where we feel misunderstood or when our expectations don’t seem to be met, we tend to label this as “suffering.” When we suffer, we have two choices. We can react and harden in resistance to what we’re feeling and experiencing in the hopes that the feeling or the situation will go away, or we can open and soften. We can choose to be like water. Choosing this way seems a tough call but it is in fact much softer way of life. It’s softer on the heart, the mind and the body. It may take a deep breath or two and a lot of courage to do, as it feels exposing and scary to be soft and open, but the lesson of water is that it will bear the fruit and will, if you dare risk it, feel a lot kinder on your system and on others around you.

I invite you to join me in choosing to be soft, like water.

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What is Tantric Eye-gazing?

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Eye gazing is the practice of staring into the eyes of a partner or yourself via a mirror. It is an ancient tantric practice that will dramatically increase intimacy with your partner by allowing a view of your deeper self and also allowing a powerful exchange of energies.

Eye gazing is a natural for new lovers and young children but modern lifestyles, a need to focus on other things and multi-task and objectification of humans decreases our inclination and ability to gaze into the eyes of another. Eyes truly are the window to your soul, so if you want to really know yourself or your partner, try this beautiful, moving experience that Rumi calls “consciousness of union” and brings many to tears.

Eye gazing is incredibly powerful and most people are so disconnected from their true spiritual side, that eye gazing can be a very weird and uncomfortable experience initially and many people are simply unable to do it. It takes practice and determination, a willing partner to overcome initial feelings of vulnerability, overwhelming emotions and even strange phenomenon such as morphing faces.

Why Practice Eye Gazing?

Eye gazing is an extremely intense experience that does not allow hiding or aversion because it is a direct soul connection. External issues disappear as well as physical boundaries between partners as the separateness dissolves and you melt into each others soul. There is a spiritual component to eye gazing as well because many believe a spirit or “god” to live within us, so this is an opportunity for us to see the embodiment of the divine.

In the context of lovemaking, eye gazing should be mandatory. Without eye contact, lovemaking is merely sex, devoid of love or a spiritual connection and it adds that certain element that creates love, bonding and intimacy and allows both parties to feel fulfilled.

How to Practice Eye Gazing?

Your left eye is known as the most direct window to your soul. Therefore, when eye gazing, stare in your partners left eye, or the eye on the right side of your partners face from your point of view. Your partner should do the same with you.

“Eye gazing sessions often take participants on a journey through a variety of experiences which might include; great stillness and calm, waves of sadness / loss / grief, extraordinary light reversals and colour changes, strong tactile body sensations, fits of euphoric laughter, ecstasy etc. The more we can accept and surrender to whatever comes up the deeper we are able to go and thus the richer our experience will be.” Eyegazing.co.uk

Eye gazing can be practiced with anyone who desires a deeper connection. It does not have to be a sexual partner or a sexual experience. You can practice eye gazing by sitting across from your partner without touching, while holding hands or while making love. As you become comfortable with eye gazing, you can amplify the experience by practicing synchronized breathing with your partner or by placing your right hand on each others hearts and left hand on your own for a magnificent energy transfer.

Variations of Eye Gazing

Eye gazing can have tremendous therapeutic and healing benefits due to the powerful energy transfer and if practiced for any length of time, it is common for emotional pain to surface, which the participant can feel and release in a gentle yet powerful way.

Eye gazing is also a moving and enlightening experience when practiced solo. It is also an excellent way to get to know yourself, your inner self and also to become comfortable with eye gazing. Start out by gazing at your own face in the mirror to try to see the little nuances about yourself that others see. Eventually gaze into your own left eye for as long as you are able. Go as deep as you can.

You can also practice basic eye contact which is lost on many adults today. You will quickly see how uncomfortable people become with this level of intimacy but many will be drawn to the inner you and your confidence level. Be sure to keep your facial features neutral so you don’t come across as creepy or underhanded.

Eye gazing is even replacing speed dating as an even quicker “get to know you”, because people found that the trite conversation of speed dating never let them get to know the other person. Some find it weird and disconcerting, but it seems to be taking off in larger cities such as New York and San Francisco so perhaps people are finally reaching out for the deeper connection that has been lost for so long.

Pausing in the busy-ness

This clip beautifully captures much of the essence of what I teach about touch and presence through touch. By pausing, we can turn our attention inward and feel where we’re at in our core essence. Enjoy!